Yet Another Realization

July 21, 2009

Thank You , Father God for this realization .... a valuable lesson learned...
that the underlying reason for my version of 'reckless spending' which I justified as an antidote to stress was that I was trying to fill up the internal feelings of lack of abundance by buying things and things that were not really that vitally necessary for my growth and personal development ... Now I'm trying to cultivate that which can be called a 'spirit of abundance' , the feeling of inner abundance that transcends , that is over and above , physicality and materiality ....which I find is really not that easy to attain ..
Day in and day out , I have to be conscious and intentful in developing that mindset
of abundance. In IT language , I have to reformat , erase the old software and reprogram .. Well, it took several decades for the old software to get itself entrenched . Understandably , the deletion of the old and installing the new programs and software may not be that instantaneous. I just have to keep at it. Praise and Thanks, Lord God ...