Groundhog Chronicles

July 07, 2008
Monday ….Oh well, Monday …Got to start this page first before I can settle down to whatever work it is I’m doing …. which for today is studying and learning the data mining tool SAS Enterprise Miner …

Anyway , got off to a sluggish start this morning , drinking my morning coffee. I got so stoned , I pulled out my Crayola box of 64 which had been in hiding for at least a year , and colored a fashion design drawing I’ve made , colored it sky blue and burnt orange , just for the heck of it …. Talk about ‘pattern interrupt’ .
But of course, I was late for work … Many times I’ve found that it’s the little , seemingly insignificant nice things that pulls me through the day and through a lot of personal turmoil .

I sometimes feel that I’ve been victimized by my youthful idealism . And the adage that ‘Mother knows best ‘ proves true once more…. I realize now the wisdom of my mom’s admonition thirty-years ago --- to get rich first before trying to be a hero. My ideals are still there , but I’ve come to realize that they are just that, they belong in the utopian or heavenly reams . And much of my cynicism and disappointment rose from my expectation that they can come true in the real world , that naturally, not that I expected it to be easy …


I need to do a good 180 or 360 degrees turnaround…..While my emotional idealism is commendable , they’re not a balanced component of my life … I need to counterbalance, if not totally debunked those sentiments , with a realistic view of how my life should be lived …. Of course , not to go overboard and swing to the other extreme of the pendulum ….

I’m starting to live another life now … my mind is totally into that life now, my emotions still partially, and I still have to go through another radical and transformational breakthrough to free myself from old emotions …. I’ve read somewhere that emotions are hardest to change and get rid of … For the physical aspect, all I needs is a lot of moohlah, nothing else ….Have money, will go ….


So , it’s closing time again …. Did not get very far with the tutorial or torturial on Enterprise Miner ..Groundhog day , again … well, there was one new thing I did… I voted online for the seven new wonders of the world and of course I voted for all four Philippine nominations , which are all in the top 7 ….The Cappadocia rock formation entry was likewise awesome and mysterious …..
Thank You, Father God for the day ….