July 03, 2008
Gray morning today …both the weather and me …..woke up with some grey thoughts and feelings ….grey thoughts related to the past ….And I thought I was beyond them already …. I guess they will float in and out of my mind unannounced and without my permission …But I sure can keep them from harming me again … In fact I’m going to use them as a footstool so I can stand higher and have a larger panoramic view of life …
Easy….easy …. I’m already trying to live the ‘unexamined life’ and live a light-hearted life at this stage . What’s good now about all those ugly periods in the past is that they have now become wellsprings of laughter at my stupid reactions, my stupid seriousness and over-involvement . Feels good to be able to laugh at what I was in the past….. the present , too.
10:30 A.M.
You know what I pray will happen today ?… that this will not be just another day like yesterday and the days before…. Surprise me , God, please , pleasantly and major(ly) , of course .. Please , not like the surprise a few minutes ago --- I landed on my butt slipping on a wet floor …..but something like me getting on an airplane for a week or a month in Paris and Prague ….
2:00 P.M. Per Julia Cameron’s instructions in her book ‘The Artist’s Way’ , morning pages should be three … At the rate I’m going, doing these at the office, I might not be getting the optimum results from doing this exercise which is supposed to remove artistic blockages in the mind……
5:15 PM ….. Spent the rest of the afternoon doing applications test …. Time to go again …. Thank You , Lord God….
By the way, above are Ricardo Larrabure's photos I mentioned in the July 1 page. I crossed-posted that from my multiply blog and somehow the pictures did not come through. I couldn't edit the blogspot page either.
Gray morning today …both the weather and me …..woke up with some grey thoughts and feelings ….grey thoughts related to the past ….And I thought I was beyond them already …. I guess they will float in and out of my mind unannounced and without my permission …But I sure can keep them from harming me again … In fact I’m going to use them as a footstool so I can stand higher and have a larger panoramic view of life …
Easy….easy …. I’m already trying to live the ‘unexamined life’ and live a light-hearted life at this stage . What’s good now about all those ugly periods in the past is that they have now become wellsprings of laughter at my stupid reactions, my stupid seriousness and over-involvement . Feels good to be able to laugh at what I was in the past….. the present , too.
10:30 A.M.
You know what I pray will happen today ?… that this will not be just another day like yesterday and the days before…. Surprise me , God, please , pleasantly and major(ly) , of course .. Please , not like the surprise a few minutes ago --- I landed on my butt slipping on a wet floor …..but something like me getting on an airplane for a week or a month in Paris and Prague ….
2:00 P.M. Per Julia Cameron’s instructions in her book ‘The Artist’s Way’ , morning pages should be three … At the rate I’m going, doing these at the office, I might not be getting the optimum results from doing this exercise which is supposed to remove artistic blockages in the mind……
5:15 PM ….. Spent the rest of the afternoon doing applications test …. Time to go again …. Thank You , Lord God….
By the way, above are Ricardo Larrabure's photos I mentioned in the July 1 page. I crossed-posted that from my multiply blog and somehow the pictures did not come through. I couldn't edit the blogspot page either.
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