July 28, 2008 The pics above are those of little things in my little home taken through
my cellphone cam. I've always had these moments that when the big things in life are not doing so well or not at all, like my job and my travel plans and my business plans .... there are always the little things in life to perk me up ...
July 23, 2008
Hey … Morning pages time again …. Hmmmm , little quotidian things of beauty are beginning to strike me again … Washing my dirty mugs from yesterday this morning , I was struck by the fuschia – magenta color of the dishwashing liquid which turned a lovely shade of light lavender-pink when mixed with water. … The clear bottle of fushia-magenta liquid standing next to a green glass vase formed a ‘Christmas-y’ complementary color tableau ….
Remembering the most remarkable gourmet meal I’ve had …. Thirty years ago … when I was still an illusional/delusional rebel-with-a-cause idealist, when the word ‘gourmet’ was not yet in my consciousness …. After riding a rickety provincial bus to a remote seaside town at the foot of the Sierra Madre , we climbed up or one hour or so the rocky side of the mountain , then down again and rode the sea in a ‘banca’ amidst forested cliffs …. Rowed for another hour or so, it could be less …. Until we reached the mouth of a river opening into the sea . After getting off the boat into the yellowish-creamy white sand, the rower of the boat immediately caught some small shining silvery fishes from the sea ( galunggong , I think they were ) , threw and grilled them fresh in a fire …. Squeezed calamansi juice over them … Then we had a feast on a banana leaf with steaming rice on it ….. the scene I always remember like a scene in a movie , slow-mo , the hazy sunlight , sea breeze , glimmering ocean as a backdrop ….with just the essential motions … I don’t even remember how the boat rower caught the fish , or who lit up the fire .. Maybe it was the hunger from the trip …. But it was a most fulfilling and satisfying and refreshing meal … I read somewhere that some elements of a good meal are good food and ambience …
Had a nice consciousness programming experience this early morning …. I don’t know if I was semi-awake/asleep , but I was distinctly aware of a thought in my mind saying ... this is a beautiful lady and some other similar words . I had the distinct impression that those words/thoughts were being said and directed to me …. It felt nice, very nice and I was feeling smiley when I woke up this morning … First time this happened to me … Hmmm … looks like my efforts and intentions of positively reprogramming myself from the deepest basic parts of me is slowly finally bearing fruits …. Thank You , Father God , Lord Jesus Christ , Holy Spirit …
One of my favorite French phrases is “Je suis la femme le plus heureux au monde « .
And World Lingo says ‘ I am the happiest woman on earth’ . Currently enjoying my cholesterol lowering meals which I myself cook … hah ! … gave me an excuse to go gourmet-ish ….Since yesterday I’ve been feasting on salmon sautéed in olive oil with garlic, onion, paprika, basil and a McCormick spice adobo concoction, with veggies like zucchini, asparagus, sprouts with a Chinese-sounding sound , the blooms of kuchay which if I recall right is cilantro or coriander , lettuce, celery and parsley and lots of oats and fruits …And one of these days I’m going to cook me ratatouille… Who says dieting and eating right is not enjoyable . And my trying-to-expand psychological wallet is trying not to mind the cost…it’s for a good health cause , anyway .. instead of paying hospital and doctor’s fees and medicine , good beautiful nutritious food na lang …
One other thing I’m trying to change my programming about is that ‘money’ can only be received and gotten through hard work and money science . The thought occurred to me that it can only be received through other channels that are ethically good and sound … how , I still have to find out . One thing I’ve done is to ask God for money, for starters … Hey , I’m not lazy .. I love to work hard even if it’s for a good cause and non-profit … I’m just starting to believe that money graces can be given to me by God through other channels …
Another thought occurred to me … I’m beginning to have a turn-around in how I regard this whole government service/employment experience … I used to regard this as a ‘defining- the-self ‘ thing … well, I’m changing that … I am detaching myself at the personal level from this whole experience , which really is not very comfortable… it has some rudeness and crudeness to it … it is but a crucible where in I was given the chance to refine and grow my self … I could even be grateful, and perhaps I really should be grateful for the lessons the experience has given me , ‘discomfortable ‘ the whole thing may be…
What do you know , five always comes on time …. Ciao ..
Hey … Morning pages time again …. Hmmmm , little quotidian things of beauty are beginning to strike me again … Washing my dirty mugs from yesterday this morning , I was struck by the fuschia – magenta color of the dishwashing liquid which turned a lovely shade of light lavender-pink when mixed with water. … The clear bottle of fushia-magenta liquid standing next to a green glass vase formed a ‘Christmas-y’ complementary color tableau ….
Remembering the most remarkable gourmet meal I’ve had …. Thirty years ago … when I was still an illusional/delusional rebel-with-a-cause idealist, when the word ‘gourmet’ was not yet in my consciousness …. After riding a rickety provincial bus to a remote seaside town at the foot of the Sierra Madre , we climbed up or one hour or so the rocky side of the mountain , then down again and rode the sea in a ‘banca’ amidst forested cliffs …. Rowed for another hour or so, it could be less …. Until we reached the mouth of a river opening into the sea . After getting off the boat into the yellowish-creamy white sand, the rower of the boat immediately caught some small shining silvery fishes from the sea ( galunggong , I think they were ) , threw and grilled them fresh in a fire …. Squeezed calamansi juice over them … Then we had a feast on a banana leaf with steaming rice on it ….. the scene I always remember like a scene in a movie , slow-mo , the hazy sunlight , sea breeze , glimmering ocean as a backdrop ….with just the essential motions … I don’t even remember how the boat rower caught the fish , or who lit up the fire .. Maybe it was the hunger from the trip …. But it was a most fulfilling and satisfying and refreshing meal … I read somewhere that some elements of a good meal are good food and ambience …
Had a nice consciousness programming experience this early morning …. I don’t know if I was semi-awake/asleep , but I was distinctly aware of a thought in my mind saying ... this is a beautiful lady and some other similar words . I had the distinct impression that those words/thoughts were being said and directed to me …. It felt nice, very nice and I was feeling smiley when I woke up this morning … First time this happened to me … Hmmm … looks like my efforts and intentions of positively reprogramming myself from the deepest basic parts of me is slowly finally bearing fruits …. Thank You , Father God , Lord Jesus Christ , Holy Spirit …
One of my favorite French phrases is “Je suis la femme le plus heureux au monde « .
And World Lingo says ‘ I am the happiest woman on earth’ . Currently enjoying my cholesterol lowering meals which I myself cook … hah ! … gave me an excuse to go gourmet-ish ….Since yesterday I’ve been feasting on salmon sautéed in olive oil with garlic, onion, paprika, basil and a McCormick spice adobo concoction, with veggies like zucchini, asparagus, sprouts with a Chinese-sounding sound , the blooms of kuchay which if I recall right is cilantro or coriander , lettuce, celery and parsley and lots of oats and fruits …And one of these days I’m going to cook me ratatouille… Who says dieting and eating right is not enjoyable . And my trying-to-expand psychological wallet is trying not to mind the cost…it’s for a good health cause , anyway .. instead of paying hospital and doctor’s fees and medicine , good beautiful nutritious food na lang …
One other thing I’m trying to change my programming about is that ‘money’ can only be received and gotten through hard work and money science . The thought occurred to me that it can only be received through other channels that are ethically good and sound … how , I still have to find out . One thing I’ve done is to ask God for money, for starters … Hey , I’m not lazy .. I love to work hard even if it’s for a good cause and non-profit … I’m just starting to believe that money graces can be given to me by God through other channels …
Another thought occurred to me … I’m beginning to have a turn-around in how I regard this whole government service/employment experience … I used to regard this as a ‘defining- the-self ‘ thing … well, I’m changing that … I am detaching myself at the personal level from this whole experience , which really is not very comfortable… it has some rudeness and crudeness to it … it is but a crucible where in I was given the chance to refine and grow my self … I could even be grateful, and perhaps I really should be grateful for the lessons the experience has given me , ‘discomfortable ‘ the whole thing may be…
What do you know , five always comes on time …. Ciao ..
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