Happiness Within

This is one of the haaaarrdest lesson to learn ....to generate happiness within with no help at all from the outside, from circumstances , from other people. To be and feel abundance within one self with or without external circumstances ... I think that I should be happy enough inside because of God, because of the belief that God loves me and that He will provide always, even without external manifestation, even without my dreams coming to reality yet ... I psyche my self to feel that, I convince myself to feel that.... Most times I fear that God will provide, yes, but only the bare necessities , but not my fondest dreams and plans, not the beautiful and charmed life that I would want with more than survival needs met .... travels and sojourns in Europe, pilgrimages to the Holy Land my own beautiful and nourishing home, my own car, a successful business, my passion and interest in arts and design given full play, helping people who need my help, resting and working when
I choose to ...... I have to break through this mental limitation that I have conjured up unconsciously in my mind in the past.... I have to modify my subconcious to believing that God wants the best for me and that He will grant what I ask and believe for and receive them. I open myself , my entire being to a downpour of God's goodies and surprises, to the abundance of the universe ... the works ... I empty and get myself rid of everything and anything that's hindering the flow of abundance in my life !!!